Oiselle is talking about setting goals and I'm trying to blog more, so here are mine!

Run: break 4 at Paris in April, BQ at Berlin in September! Reject: fear + doubt + shitty weather.


Last fall, when I signed up for the Paris marathon "just for fun," I looked into what it would take to train for a BQ. I asked speedy friends what worked for them, read a lot of blogs/the Internet in general, and finally forked over a few bucks to download a training plan that would help me run sub-3:35. I literally laughed out loud when I saw the speed work required, but that same day I laced up my shoes anyway and said, WHY NOT?

Shockingly (to me) I hit all of those paces and I didn't even think about stopping to puke or dry heave once, even though that was the first time I'd done true speed work in months. "Why not?" turned into "Why not me!?"

And then, actually shockingly, I ended up getting into the Berlin Marathon, which is pretty much the fastest/flattest course out there, so "why not me" turned into "why not now."  

I've got a lot of fear and doubt when it comes to this training cycle, but all of that pales in comparison to the fear and doubt I have about this country moving forward. My heart broke in November. It shattered into tiny little pieces and I'm trying to put it back together - slowly but surely, mile by mile. Because FORWARD is what I know how to do. That's what I know about running, and that's how I want to feel about this country. I'm not quite there yet, and mid-term elections feel so far away, but the time to act is now.

So, in running (and in life), I reject fear and I reject doubt and also, I reject New England's RIDICULOUSLY FICKLE WEATHER, because none of these things are very good for the soul.